I just wanted to say. Thanks.
Thanks to everyone that helped me go from a lost wandering soul to someone that feels ultimately so fulfilled.
Its 5:17AM. We are waiting for a bed to open up so we can begin the induction process. I’m nervously wandering around, I’ve done all the checklists things I can possibly do. Now, we wait.
I had a doctors appointment yesterday, finally. All the staff were so excited and giddy about the fact we were expecting so soon. They were less giddy when I about passed out when they tried to draw blood from me. Where did that come from? Does anyone have any tricks? I used to get blood drawn 6-10 times a year to check on my thyroid and it was never a problem, and then last year out of the blue during a draw I just felt awful and about hit the deck. Today, they couldn’t even get a sample and I was almost out. It’s not needles, I get shots all the time and its fine, it’s not pain, I really don’t even notice. No idea.
I got a prescription for my GERD though, hopefully it helps. I feel pretty stressed about the fact I am at about 75% physical strength best most of the time, at this time that Paint needs me the most. Hopefully it helps and I can actually start eating food again without it being a nightmare.
I’m sure the stress and anxiety are playing their role. Such sneaky buggers they are. You can feel like you’re on top of the world, and honestly I have been feeling that way, but somewhere deep inside you the stress is just building and eating away. I guess I just hope I can get to feeling like myself again physically and that will ease my mind enough to truly enjoy this very special time in my life. I’m doing my dream job, with my dream partner and starting a dream family. I just want to be able to feel like I can truly celebrate that.
Time will tell. No matter what, I’m here to do the best I can with what I’ve got. I can’t wait to give that little human every chance of the best life I can possibly setup for them. It’s comforting knowing we have so many people around us in the world that support us through these times. It’s crazy difficult having zero local friends or family, but thanks to the internet of friends, we’re never alone.
Thanks.
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